Giving it another go

I'm back with another weight loss attempt. I've been working out, training for my races and all that. But I've managed to put on 7lbs that I'd lost, which SUCKS. I want to give this a strong, honest attempt, diet wise in particular, to see what my body is willing to give up now. I'm not nursing as much as I was and I'm hoping that the decreased demands on my body will free up some of the "just in case" fat that it seems to want to hang on to. We shall see.

I've been eating on plan for two and a half days now, which isn't much, but I feel fine - and that's huge. I'm decreasing my calories by more than I have so far (since G's birth, anyway) and yeah, I'm hungry a lot, but it isn't I'm-going-to-pass-out hungry; hopefully it's just burning-the-fat hungry. I felt like this a lot of the time when I was dropping pounds before I was pregnant with G, so hopefully that's a good sign.

So we'll see. If I can't lose weight with what I'm doing now, I really am stuck until nursing is over. But I think I'll be able to lose a little. Slowly is fine, as long as I can start moving in the right direction.

As an aside, I have a race a week from tomorrow and it's an open water swim. My wetsuit BARELY fits. Actually, I don't know if I can even make that claim, since I have yet to get it completely on and zipped up. I also discovered one of the seams popped open, but I don't know if that happened a while ago or if that stems from my attempts to squeeze the thing on. I'd hate to think I've ripped it open because I'm too big for it, but that's a real possibility. After all, I am a good 20lbs heavier than when I wore it last. Ugh, that sucks. In any case, I hope I'll be able to get the thing zipped. It's going to be really embarassing to have my mom and my friend both tugging on the strap trying to get me into it. But I do not want to do an open water swim without it - water temperature aside, that thing helps me float!